“No, no, no, Michael,” you’re thinking to yourself. The phrase is “TWO steps forward, ONE step back.”
I know. And I know what I said.
The last few nights seem worse. How is this happening? Aaron still isn’t going to sleep until late. He stays up through naps and when he does nap he often naps for less than an hour. You’d think he’d be tired by 9:00 p.m., but no. Maybe 10:00 p.m.? Ha! Hopefully by 11:00 p.m. he’s in bed but that’s usually after screaming for a while. I’m not quite sure what makes him finally fall asleep. I’m sometimes not totally coherent after rocking, shushing, walking, and bouncing for two hours. Last night he went to sleep about 10:00-something and an hour later I heard a shriek. He does this too. It seems he gets scared in the middle of his sleeping and calls out. Usually, if you rush to him and stroke his head or chest you can get him back to sleep. But take a few seconds too long and we’re back to the rocking, shushing, walking and bouncing for a while. Aaron will only fall asleep on me. That’s a great way to get him to close his eyes. After 10, 15, 20 minutes (it doesn’t matter how long) of Aaron being deep in sleep his eyes pop open the first moment that I stand up to bring him to bed.
The shrieks now wake up Jeff so that’s another reason to nip it in the bud. Jeff will usually sleep a few hours between his feedings (3 hours on average, sometimes 2.5 hours but also 4 hours from time to time!) but isn’t always falling asleep right after the feedings now. Last night I fed him about 12:30 a.m. and got smiles after the milk was gone. Don’t get me wrong. I love smiles from my babies, but in the middle of the night it’s all about business. Don’t smile! Smile means we’re having fun and this is not the time for fun. This is the time for sleeping! Yes, you're adorable, Jeff, but go back to sleep!
“You’re starving your baby by not giving him rice cereal.”
Yep. I’ve heard that one from a lot of people. One co-worker literally told me that I was starving my children. At the last pediatrician’s appointment the doctor said to start giving them cereal. We’ve been giving them cereal for the last week and a half. Last night we made sure to give the boys cereal at their last feeding before bed. Did it work? Two and a half hours after that feeding I find myself with a two babies and two bottles. (Sigh)
I know, in a few months I’ll miss this. I’ll wish I got to hold my babies at night. In my very first entry of this blog I said I’d use these entries to help me be grateful for what I have. I know this entry seems like I’m complaining and I’ve lost sight of all the good that has happened. I won’t make excuses. I am complaining a little. The sleep deprivation and screaming at 2 a.m. just get to a person after so many months. I just need to...
Aaron just screamed after 20 minutes of sleeping. He’s awake. To be continued.